Relapse

Today I see that what I wrote yesterday about my fears of the expansion of war is a relapse, a relapse into old ideologies from the seventies, a relapse into thinking that was based on fear and the dialectices of fighting for good aginst evil. Which requires something to fight against in order to feel good about my own struggles, of course. So that thing I am fighting  must be evil, or how can I be good and right?

After a few years of studying Science of Mind and preaching Oneness, I should have known that seeing the forces that strive for control of the world as the problem only gives them power, and that I need to let go of the past and the negatives to find a better way to live. But i also knew that I still have difficulties (speak: resistance) to the teaching that we always need to deny the negative.

Ernest Holmes says it all the time: don't think about the problem, only think of the solution. Affirm the positve, deny the negative. And when I stop to look at it I know he is right and that the negative is never real. It is always an invention of my fantasy based on fear.

Like when I am sick and get worried about getting sicker. I go into fear, project pain, suffering and death into my future and if i get myself scared enough my immune system will be so compromised that i actually might die. That way I prove to myself that it was real, that my fears were justified and never have the opportunity to find out that it works the other way too. If I deny the sickness, convince myself that i am filled with life energy and nothing can harm me, i have a good chance to recover in the shortest time. And prove that i am right again.

That's how we always prove to be right in what we think. Except that we exclude the other half of the possibilities and the world. And forget that whatever we fight we make stronger.

And that's what i forgot in my fear yesterday. The war is only real if most people live in fear and call it real, because if they weren't in fear they wouldn't show up. They would laugh about a small group of people trying to take over a future world government and talk to their neighbors and get rid of the power addicts. Then they would talk to the other side who really wants peace too, but who are too afraid so that they respond with weapons rather than with laughter,make a peace agreement and work things out. Bombs and guns never worked out anything, they only keep peole in fear and away from talking things through.
So all iIneed to do is to get out of the fearful fantasies and trust that we can work it out..

So, sorry for the alarm.

Let's stay positive, and affirm that all fear is unreal.

How did that go in the "Course in Miracles":

Only love is real.
Nothing real can be threatened.
Therein lies the peace of Mind.
(Well, i guess it was God, wasn't it.? But that's one and the same anyway.)

Thanks for listening.

Mikael